Don't create an Ishmael..
Its been such a rough few weeks. I have felt and seen God move in a way that I have never seen before. Recently went to a government hospital, to do an outreach. I saw the heart of God. I was so moved by what we were doing and seeing how much God loves and cares for people. It will forever be one of the most life defining moments of my life. I feel a calling on my life like never before. A calling to serve and be the hand of God. To love people and reach out to anyone and everyone who has a need. I never saw this side of me or God but it is truly so beautiful. I feel so humbled, honored and grateful to be used in this manner and I just cant picture anything else more important to pursue in my life. But... and there's always a but... I am acutely aware that I have to pay the bills. I also have an unexplained amount of faith that I will be ok and God will provide. So now what. Well apparently, I need to be still and wait. Which is suuuuuch a struggle and I hate it. But I accep...