Randomness begins..

My last post was in May so I think its time to say something so people dont think I'm dead...

I recently had something stolen from me... something that meant a lot... I'm not sure what mad me more angry the fact that it was taken by someone I trusted or the fact that I was treated like one who was wrong... And this was a theft... imagine if it was rape...

I'm feeling despondent at the course of events... the fact that the bad guy got away... and I'm feeling lost again... I think this is my annual I hate what I do season.... and I hate what I do. I feel like I could be doing more for the world but I'm just too scared to get involved. This is a world were aid workers are kidnapped and tortured... I'm being chicken...

i dont know where I'm going with the blog and I'm sorry if I've wasted your time as you read this...

Comments

graycladunits said…
Relax, you are innocent. I have been very busy with college work, but I assure you that you have never wasted my time. You have my condolences about the theft. If it isn't too painful, may I ask what was stolen? As far as the thief is concerned, take your time when dealing with the anger. Remember that it fades in time. Once the anger has faded, pray for the soul of the person who wronged you as the Bible says to do. Whatever you do, do not be eaten up with hate over this event. Your continent needs all the love-filled people it can get its hands on.
November 6, 2009 at 4:07 PM
Fuzzy Lojic said…
Hi GCU

Thank you for your comment. It REALLY opened my eyes.. I've been walking around saying that I'm over it and God will punish who ever is truly wrong but I never focused on how I angry I am over this. The stolen item in question is an extremely valuable piece of jewellery that belonged to my mother. The item was insured but the sentimal value far outweighed its worth.

I've made the concious decision to let it go. For two reasons. Firstly, I believe that everything happens for a reason and its beyond my understanding to question it. Secondly, in the end it was just a possession. Losing it and being judged about it does not change who I am or whats in my heart. I know its soppy. But I can truly say that it is ok :) It is time to forgive... if I dont... nobody will...

Anyway, thank you once again for the comment. Your fresh perspective is very very appreciated :) I hope you're having fun with college :D :D I remember my 18 hour days and all night programming stunts :D

Keep it real and God be with you.

LoJic
November 8, 2009 at 8:20 AM
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