To boldly go where no one has gone before...

Its only the second week in Feb and I've had 3 funerals... I think when you are touched by death, you look at your life with a fresh perspective...

Am I who I want to be... Am I doing what I was meant to... If I die tomorrow, what will I have to say for my life...

I've been distracting myself for the past three years with things that I thought would make me happy... I have an awesome career thats going well and getting better and achievements that are really awesome...yeah.. awesome to everyone else... they feel hollow and pointless to me. I dont think my heart is in what I do... How can I be soooo good at something that doesnt make me happy in the least...

I'm scared to take the road less travelled, to give up a comfortable life and to put myself out there... but I feel like I will never be truly happy until I do... often in life the decisions that are the hardest and hurt the most are the ones you are forced to make sooner or later... they follow you around everyday and appear in your dreams all the time till you decide to actually make the choice...

So here I am. Right where I was when I started this blog. Looking for someone to tell me I'm making the right choice and it will be ok... even if I know it wont...

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graycladunits said…
Okay, put down the drink in your hand and listen closely...If you wanna leave your job and experiment you must think of two things: timing and money. If you leave your job to put yourself out there and take the risk of failing while out there you will need a "financial cushion" to give yourself time to find the right profession for yourself. Then, there is timing. You must ask yourself if this is the right time to leave a lucrative job to find the right profession for yourself. Considering the situation of the economy around the world, if you leave to find yourself and put yourself out there and fail in the process you won't likely be able to find another job soon. So...I suggest waiting until economic conditions improve. If you wait and put yourself out there at a later date when timing is right and fail, then you will have an easier time of finding another job when your "financial cushion" is used up. In the mean time, if possible, you should prepare to put yourself out there and run both the risk of failure and the chance of success by saving up a "financial cushion" for youself...that is, if that's possible. In the mean time, pray and see where you think God wants you to go before you follow the rest of this advice. Pray first, act second.

Yours in Christ, graycladunits or David

PS: If you want you can even add me as a friend on facebook. I imagine you might be curious t o finally put a face with my screen name.
February 8, 2010 at 4:01 PM
Fuzzy Lojic said…
Hi GCU

Thanks for the advice. I really really appreciate it. I dont have a financial cushion but my field is always in demand and I always have offers from other companies. The economy in SA has really not been impacted as badly as you guys have across the sea.

Having said that, I can't help but consider the impact of the decisions I'm making about my life. I've spoken to my husband about what I want to do which is filled with uncertainty versus staying on my current path which promises wealth. He has agreed that I should follow my heart on this one. I've had this feeling recurring every year and I distract myself by travelling or studying for certifications. But the feeling always comes back.

I think its time do the right thing and make a go of it or else I'm going to wake up 10 years from now, in a job I hate with a big house and SUV and maybe an addiction to prescription drugs...completely unhappy.

I'm definitely going to pray about this and would appreciate if you drop a word to the Big Guy for me too.

My gut tells me I'm doing the right thing. I'm terrified and excited but at the same time I feel at peace with myself, like I'm finally doing the right thing.

Wish me luck,
FL

PS I've enabled comment filters so if you drop me your real details, I wont post it but I'll be able to find you on FB :)
February 9, 2010 at 1:40 AM
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