My Walk by Grace

Recently I felt this song spoken into my heart. I have been a christian my entire life.. and it becomes very easy to forget or glaze over the sacrifice the Christ made... and the love of God to rescue us from our sin by sending His Son. I love this song because it speaks about soo much. So here's what hits me: How deep the Father's love for us How vast beyond all measure That He should give His only Son To make a wretch His treasure That God could love ME so greatly. I am so not worth it, a sinner, selfish and humanly flawed. That He looked down on me in mercy, even though I don't deserve that love because He knows every sin I will ever commit. And He still chose to save me. Not just save me, but send Jesus, a part of Him, His son that He loved so dearly, to suffer in my place. I look at my daughter and I think about how God must have felt knowing the pain Jesus would go through, loving Him so much but still releasing Him to do His will. How great the pain of seari...

Wow.. so I really forgot this blog... and was quite surprised.. I was so naive.. and I had no idea what I was doing.. Life has changed dramatically. I got divorced. For the 1st time in a million years I'm alone. There have been hard lessons and relationships that have exploded and maybe taught me lessons I didn't want to learn. I got into a relationship straight after my husband and I separated. And it almost tore me apart. But God was there. He waited and watched over me. I had no business being in this relationship. I was so wrong. But I was so desperate to not be alone and wouldn't see the lies around me. I was at gym once and they were playing Fray - How to save a life. And there was this part.. "pray to God, He hears you." And I literally laughed and said Haha God, you're funny. Next time I'm rushing to gym... driving 160 on the freeway.. and the truck in front of me starts spinning. I'm surrounded by cars.. all speeding.. I thought we were ...