What just happened?

Wow.. so I really forgot this blog... and was quite surprised.. I was so naive.. and I had no idea what I was doing..

Life has changed dramatically. I got divorced. For the 1st time in a million years I'm alone. There have been hard lessons and relationships that have exploded and maybe taught me lessons I didn't want to learn.

I got into a relationship straight after my husband and I separated. And it almost tore me apart. But God was there. He waited and watched over me. I had no business being in this relationship. I was so wrong. But I was so desperate to not be alone and wouldn't see the lies around me.

I was at gym once and they were playing Fray - How to save a life. And there was this part.. "pray to God, He hears you." And I literally laughed and said Haha God, you're funny. Next time I'm rushing to gym... driving 160 on the freeway.. and the truck in front of me starts spinning. I'm surrounded by cars.. all speeding.. I thought we were going to die. This truck spins 2 or 3 times and stops facing me, stuck between the barrier and the car next to him.. and all the cars came to a perfect stop. A song starts on my radio and I look up and it says "Look after you." It was another Fray song, but in that instant I knew God was speaking to me... I was moved to tears.. goosebumps...

I hadn't been sleeping well, I still dont. I wake up alot between 2 and 3am. This lady at work.. barely know her, comes to me and tells me shes been waking up the same time and thinking about me. And the spirit moves her to pray for me at the same time. And she said, "God wants you to know He will look after you. He loves you so so much."

I count this the beginning of my journey. So this is what I will be writing about going forward. How I was in a pit, and He saved me... and how my journey is now very different but all about Him.

Till next time, guard your heart and trust in Him.

But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you. - Matthew 6:33

 Much love,
Lojic

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