How deep the Father's Love for us...

Recently I felt this song spoken into my heart. I have been a christian my entire life.. and it becomes very easy to forget or glaze over the sacrifice the Christ made... and the love of God to rescue us from our sin by sending His Son.

I love this song because it speaks about soo much. So here's what hits me:

How deep the Father's love for us
How vast beyond all measure
That He should give His only Son
To make a wretch His treasure

That God could love ME so greatly. I am so not worth it, a sinner, selfish and humanly flawed. That He looked down on me in mercy, even though I don't deserve that love because He knows every sin I will ever commit. And He still chose to save me. Not just save me, but send Jesus, a part of Him, His son that He loved so dearly, to suffer in my place. I look at my daughter and I think about how God must have felt knowing the pain Jesus would go through, loving Him so much but still releasing Him to do His will.
How great the pain of searing loss
The Father turns His face away
As wounds which mar the Chosen One
Bring many sons to glory
The pain and suffering that Jesus endured in my place. The pain of an entire world, every human that will ever exist, every sin that we will ever commit. A pain so great that God could not even watch this suffering. I can't imagine watching your child go through that, and feeling the pain with Him.

Behold the man upon a cross
My sin upon His shoulders
Ashamed, I hear my mocking voice
Call out among the scoffers
It was my sin that held Him there
Until it was accomplished
His dying breath has brought me life
I know that it is finished
I see Him on that cross, blood and tears in His eyes looking down at me below. But a love so great for me.. before I even existed... All my pain and shame on His shoulders. No judgement just love. What kind of love is that. To see my sin and shame, to pay the price and still pursue me with a love that is so relentless.

I will not boast in anything
No gifts, no power, no wisdom
But I will boast in Jesus Christ
His death and resurrection

This one just hits me. How everything is nothing in comparison to this gift. Its beyond our human minds to even understand, the magnitude of what was done for us.

Why should I gain from His reward?
I cannot give an answer
But this I know with all my heart
His wounds have paid my ransom

Its beyond understanding why I should be saved or why He would pick me to save. Why He would even love me. But I truly believe by grace I am saved. For this reason, I will not settle at mediocre. I will do more and work harder and never give up on pursuing God's plan for my life. I will stumble and I wall fall. And I will lose faith but I know He will continue to walk with me.

"You have so little faith," Jesus said. "Why did you doubt me?" - Matthew 4:31
Much love, keep praying.
Lojic


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