My Walk by Grace

So I had a person.. sit me down and tell me I don't look happy, I need to grow up, stop joking with everyone and basically stop being me.. I was shocked. I thought I was happy. Happier than I've ever been. Then I had someone look at me in shock when they heard someone else tell me to apply for a position that would be a promotion. This person has told me previously that I shouldn't apply because I would not get it. I have been trusting these people and basing my worth on them.. and it started eating at me. Last night, I went to gym and I was almost in tears. Feeling ugly, stupid, alone and fat. My trainer sat me done and said, "F*** them." They are not the measure of any standard. That stuck with me. Who are these people that I let speak into my spirit. Did they substantiate their words with scripture? Did God speak what they said into my soul? No. I am CHOSEN, LOVED, CALLED and EQUIPPED. I am a servant of God. Where He calls me, I will go. I don't c...

So I dedicated this year to my walk with God. I want to read my Bible cover to cover, contribute financially consistently and just generally grow with God. No distractions, no partying, no dating. Just trying my best to live righteously and be who God wants me to be. So its Feb 12, and I got distracted sooooo badly. I was even angry at God. There's this person who just makes my soul smile and its become such an awkward painful relationship. He just ignores me. And I was mad at God for let me get into this situation. I messaged my friend, to complain, and whine, and just be a potato.. and she was so calm. She hit me with something profound. There's 3 ways out of a crush: 1. You pray for your feelings to be removed, and God takes them away; 2. You pray for God to reveal what he wants to you to do and it will be revealed; and 3. You just pine and pine and pine. So I looooove to just wallow in some good pining. Then I get frustrated that nothing is happening and I pray f...